it's days like these.

i believe today, december 25th, the biggest North American holiday is the saddest day of the year. today is painful and brings back the most haunting memories for me, and for a lot of people. it stirs up the hurt of great loss and unfortune. i personally, have lost half of my family, and on this day, i count down the minutes until the day is over and my fake smile can be tucked away. the second where i can return to my room, let out my tears, and remember what today is really about. i'm not a grinch or a scrooge, and to me christmas is about the chrisitan faith and their great leader, rather than the commercialization and commodification importance the West has tragically turned this day about.

to my family who is spread amongst several countries in the world, to those who i have lost, and to those who are no longer in my life, i miss you all. your memories haunt me today. and to the one person who has tortured this day for me, i still do wonder if you are thinking about me today, and if you are you should be ashamed. ashamed that your selfishness has taken over another holiday, and again for the 23rd year you have yet to think about anyone else around you.

this blog is a toast, a toast in writing to all those today who are alone, or who are missing their great loved ones far or gone, to those who are struggling to provide food for their families. this is to you and your strong hearts, for getting through the day, for perservering and demonstrating the fortitude of human kind. you are the most brave of all.