in the beginning

i have given a lot up for you too. we all have. and even though you have given up your life, and everything you ever had, i'm trying too, trying to make it better. it doesn't mean I'm ready for everything to just drastically change. even though it has. i would give up my world for you a hundred times and i hope you know that. but you have to remember who was here before he was. remember that through those times, i was there. i saw everything, and have fresh memories. i wish i could tell you i'm a wreck, a complete basket case on most days. but i won't surface the pain in front of you. i don't think you can handle it. i'm still grieving, and i will be for a long time to come.