take me back to the good old days.

right now, at this point in my life, i'm not okay.
i feel like i'm bitter, tired, jaded, annoyed, and extremely frustrated.
i keep asking when life will turn right.
but perhaps it never does. perhaps this is it. for the next 5 decades or how many ever it takes for me to find my peace. maybe this is what we should all expect, living day to day running around to complete useless tasks that occupy our time but have no real purpose. waste our energy and emotions on things that really don't matter. it's sad isn't it? it's sad that at my age i already feel tired from life, i feel like the fun is over. i guess this is part of the process, it's part of the change that occurs in your mid-twenty crisis that i think everyone begins to go through. As Hannah had once mentioned, the day you leave undergrad, nothing will ever be the same. she was right. once you leave a place that has defined you for the past 19 years, ie: school, there is nothing left to define you, nothing left to distract you from the daily horrors of life. You are on someone else's time now, working for them. it's sad, but true. life is hard, and this is just the beginning.

i guess this is why alcohol was invented.