why start it?

am i giant joke? why initiate something then pull back? why begin to open up and then completely revert back? why invite me in and then hold back? why start this and then stop? i don't need to be dragged around and played with. your multiple layers scream your insecurities. your selfishness emanates your fear, the fear of actually letting someone close. it's deep with you so i'm going to try a little harder, but you got to budge, at least a little.