patience

one of the hardest challenges I always tend to face is my struggle with patience. I tend to jump from one thing to the next because i dont want to be lost in transistion. I dont want to be undefined. I do everything without thinking it all the way through. it has come back to haunt me many times, and still today, after making this mistake several times, i sit here and repeat it again. im searching for something i dont even know what im searching for. its frustrating and daunting. in the end, im going to have to wait anyways, so i mind as well slow down, enjoy the transition time and wait for it, because my forceful nature is not bringing it along any faster.