Happiness is the consequence of personal effort. You fight for it, strive for it, insist upon it, and sometimes even travel around the world looking for it. You have to participate relentlessly in the manifestations of your own blessings. And once you have achieved a state of happiness, you must never become lax about maintaining it. You must make a mighty effort to keep swimming upward into that happiness forever, to stay afloat on top of it.'
-- Elizabeth Gilbert

A couple of hundred years ago, Benjamin Franklin shared with the world the secret of his success. Never leave that till tomorrow, he said, which you can do today. This is the man who discovered electricity. You think more people would listen to what he had to say. I don’t know why we put things off, but if I had to guess, I’d have to say it has a lot to do with fear. Fear of failure, fear of rejection, sometimes the fear is just of making a decision, because what if you’re wrong? What if you’re making a mistake you can’t undo? The early bird catches the worm. A stitch in time saves nine. He who hesitates is lost. We can’t pretend we hadn’t been told. We’ve all heard the proverbs, heard the philosophers, heard our grandparents warning us about wasted time, heard the damn poets urging us to seize the day. Still sometimes we have to see for ourselves. We have to make our own mistakes. We have to learn our own lessons. We have to sweep today’s possibility under tomorrow’s rug until we can’t anymore. Until we finally understand for ourselves what Benjamin Franklin really meant. That knowing is better than wondering, that waking is better than sleeping, and even the biggest failure, even the worst, beat the hell out of never trying.

pain

No matter how thick skinned we try to be, there's millions of electrifying nerve endings in there. Open and exposed and feeling way too much. Try as we might to keep from feeling pain, sometimes it's just unavoidable. Sometimes that's the only thing left - just feeling.

anxiety

Yes or no. In or out. Up or down. Live or die. Hero or coward. Fight or give in. I'll say it again to make sure you hear me. The human life is made up of choices. Live or die. That's the important choice. And it's not always in our hands.

judge

i never ever want to be normal
because normal is boring

be wrong

mabye life is all about doing the wrong things
because the right never seems to be right.

the dog days are over

the horses are coming so you better run fast.

the inevitable struggle

it's okay to be lost in the wrong
lost in the things that don't matter
lost in the material
lost in yourself
lost in anything you know
lost in the most worst possible way.

because if you never got lost, then how could you ever find the way?
i hope to loose myself again, again, and again;

so many times that i meet the wrong people,
go the wrong way,
love the wrong hearts,
and share the wrong experiences.

because if i didn't then I wouldn't know anything about anything.
most imporantly, I wouldn't have lost myself in letting you break my heart and making me the fabulous person i am today.

so go on, get lost.
it's usually always worth it.

the dream.

this city is where my heart lies.

lets paint the town.

dancing is my therapy.

Mum.

Thank you for your support, and for showing me the value of life.
One day I hope to be half as strong as you.
you'll always be my best friend.
love.

love.

For one human being to love another; that is perhaps the most difficult of all our tasks... The work for which all other work is but preparation.
--Rainer Maria Rilke

Orlan

she speaks my language.

if we didn't have people like Orlan in the world, beauty may cease to exist without the constraits of a man.

Dear Prick,

The saddest news a child may face is hearing that their parent doesn't want to know them.

For the first time in my life, I don't want to know you either.

sad news.

“They are preserving the sanctity of marriage, so that two gay men who've been together for twenty-five years can't get married, but a guy can still get drunk in Vegas and marry a hooker at the Elvis chapel! The sanctity of marriage is saved!” - Lea Delaria

nice world we live in.
sad. very very sad.

heart

heartbreak makes me a dancer.

should i ever leave?

at some point the beauty begins to wear off.

i'll hide my heart away

So this is how the story went
I met someone by accident
That blew me away

It was in the darkest of my days
When you took my sorrow and you took my pain
And buried them away

And I wish I could lay down beside you
When the day is done
And wake up to your face under the morning sun
But like everything I've ever known
I'm sure you'll go one day
So I'll spend my whole life hiding my heart away
And I can't spend my whole life hiding my heart away

And this is how the story goes.